I am a wife, a mom to two boys, and a little baby girl. I'm a hairdresser of 14 years and an online hair care sharer! When I was young, I tried to hide myself and my body features. I thought I was too tall, too busty, too big, and didn't want to stand out. As I matured and grew into my body, I started to seek out what I loved about my body and soul instead of picking myself apart. Confidence slowly grew as I was acknowledged for my athletic ability it led me to receive a college volleyball scholarship.

Jasmine Rae wearing Maisey top

As life went on, sports ended, I started my career and met my husband later on. I also found out it would be very difficult for me to have children due to the polycystic ovarian syndrome that I had been officially diagnosed with. For five years my husband and I battled infertility. I was on several meds and shots and treatments, I had my hopes crushed month after month. I felt so broken physically and spiritually because my body that I had learned to love over the years was now failing me. I desperately tried to seek out everything I could do to change to make my body do what it was supposed to do. I struggled to love myself again. One day my dear sweet husband said..."Honey, we will have kids, I don't know when and I don't know how..but we will. But first, you have to stop picking yourself apart and punishing yourself! You have to quit trying to find the reasons God hasn't given you a baby... Maybe it has nothing to do with you and it's just not the right time."

After he said that, I felt a burden lifted. For the first time I thought..it's not my body's fault. I started speaking kindly to myself and my body, and that confidence slowly came back and stress was relieved. Before I knew it, I was pregnant with my son Lawson. Since then we have been blessed with another fertility treatment baby and one spontaneous pregnancy. Ironically after having babies, I have never loved my body more than I do now! I know it truly is a gift from my Heavenly Father and he has entrusted me to care for it and love it. I am so grateful and proud of myself, and the days of picking myself apart are over. I will stand proud and let my kids see it too. 

April 06, 2021 — Alli McFarlane

Comments

Dennis Cupit said:

I’ve no interest in young girls, with less curves than even I as a male have. When I shop for my wife, I always look for real women modeling clothing. You and your colleagues represent gorgeous, real women, with beautiful, real curves, and confidence which, as sexy as you all are, just raises the game that much more. Beautiful women…BEAUTIFUL!!!

Ashley said:

Thanks for sharing your story. I have PCOS too. I hope to have kids in the future and this gives me hope! I’m so glad God blessed you with children.

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